CXXXVII: Bree’s Christmas List (2020 Edition)
This Christmas will definitely be different… This year has been different.
The Holidays are already a difficult time for many and this year seems to have increased that tenfold. Although there are still people living their best lives and traveling, shopping and carrying on, many others are simply hoping for miracles, the safety of their families, and a simple break.
With that in mind, this year’s Wish List looks a little different:
I: Safety
2020 will forever be the year that we struggled through a pandemic. For some, it’ll just be the year that they got to stay home and “work” (i.e. watch tv), and for others it’ll be the year that almost broke them. Most of all, this year has been a hectic message of keeping yourself and those around you safe.
This year tested those who were too selfish or impatient to sit down long enough to keep those closest to them safe. Many of us have looked to our elders with worry and wonder because we’ve all spent a year in the dark with no clear answers as to this virus’ containment levels (which, let’s just say, we’re at zero in terms of containing and understanding this virus).
So, as much as I can ask for this, I am asking for safety for myself and for my loved ones.
II: Clarity
This year has been a jumble for me. I am struggling in every area of my life to find clarity — I am struggling so much that it’s hard to even find the words to describe this struggle…
Blame it on the year or all that is going on within me but I seem to have tried and failed at everything that I’ve put effort into, so now I’m just wishing for clear answers.
Do I keep trying at a dream job that I don’t even know will for sure be a dream?
Do I give up blogging at 3 years because I feel that I’ve hit a wall?
Should I drop out of school and exert that energy elsewhere?
Am I losing my ability to even be good at things anymore — because it’s been so long since I’ve been good at something?
Will any of this get better?
My hope is that clarity on any one of these questions will put me back on a track of forward movement. I’m tired of waking up each day to feel mediocre. I want to find that hard-working woman that I used to be and be her again! But first I need clarity.
III: Peace
My mind has been in a constant state of unrest. No matter how much rest I allow my body, my mind does not seem to benefit.
Because my life is essentially up in the air, I feel as though I have no freedom, no space, and basically nothing. I am at a space where I feel as though I have no options left… I feel like I’ve tried everything that I can and yet here I am…
But, even if just for a while, I want my mind to feel peace. It’s been so long since it’s had peace… So, this is my wish.
IV: Good Surroundings
I always say that I want to be surrounded by good people who are authentic and genuine and I honestly feel as though I have a handful of those people in my life. Even though they are spread out across these great states, they are still very much there for me.
This will forever be my continuous wish because, with a good team, you can honestly do anything.
V: A 2020 Pandora Charm
I recently received a Pandora Charm bracelet which I am over the moon about! My first charm is, of course, my Hogwarts Acceptance Letter which is a super cute two-pieced dangling charm. BUT, 2020 has been such a doozy that I cannot miss the chance to commemorate the fact that I have survived it.
With that, Pandora has a couple of options for 2020 charms which are limited edition and range in style. I haven’t officially chosen my 2020 charm but know that I am getting one for sure!
Although I am afraid that I’ll become a bit obsessed with collecting these charms (which could get costly), I am so excited to be a part of Club Pandora!
With that, Happy Holidays from the Let’s Be Breef team! 🎄